October 14, 2008 –I’m going home soon. ….After the meeting we went to the mall and bought some stuff. I got Diana a pedi-paw. Zohan & Iron man for me & pangs. Got home at 6:20, but I still have to take dodits home, so I decided to pick Diana up first before I took her home. Pangs & Diana were happy to see me.  J

October 13, 2008 – woke up around 8, I was tired from yesterday. I felt like I am still trying to find time to sleep. Went to eat breakfast and waited about 30 minutes. We went to the gym. I ran for 45 and did cycling for 15. I am sure I will not be doing this tomorrow. I have a very early schedule. I want out go home now on my fist day…..I miss them terribly.

The meeting started @ 2:30 and was ok, not really boring. Colleagues that I’ve never seen for years. It was really great to see them. Something interesting happen, before the meeting started my ex boss approach me and gave me a hug. I almost drop my jaw. He was really upset with me for leaving but I need to grow and I refuse to do my job and someone else gets the recognition. No way, I think I should get recognize for it.

After the meeting we went back to the room. As I was walking towards the elevator to go back down I saw my other ex boss (the owner), I guess he did not have a choice but to be civil. What a surprise!!! I think everyone’s pretty much over it. Thank goodness!

Anyway, it’s educating..............

October 12, 2008 – woke up really early. Had to pack my stuff, I am schedule to go to a 2 day business meeting. Kuya called around 7:30 and tried to give me all these excuse,I told him yesterday’s gone and today’s a new day already. Oh well, so much time was wasted already. I am already frustrated on him. I know he has no understanding of his responsibility and accountability. I have no other way to explain it to him, no more. I just pray and hope that one day (soon) he’ll realize he has to do something and not just talk about things in general. I told him to not call me for a few days. I just want to calm down.

We went to church, ate at that new seafood restaurant, McCormick & Schmicks located at Crabtree Valley Mall. The food is ok, but the desserts are awesome, Mango crème Brule & dark chocolate paper bag. Went home, I needed to spend at least a few hours with Pangs & Diana, I will miss them a lot. We left around 4:20 and got to Charlotte at 7:20pm… checked in, went to the gym I ran for 20 minutes and did the cycling for 15 minutes. I am trying to get back on my regular exercise schedule. I miss it , I don’t want to get out of track. It was a huge accomplishment for me to loose 40lbs and this is my 2^nd yr. Easy to gain weight and really hard to loose it.

October 14, 2008 –I’m going home soon. ….After the meeting we went to the mall and bought some stuff. I got Diana a pedi-paw. Zohan & Iron man for me & pangs. Got home at 6:20, but I still have to take dodits home, so I decided to pick Diana up first before I took her home. She was happy to see me.

J J J  J

October 13, 2008 – woke up around 8, I was tired from yesterday. I felt like I am still trying to find time to sleep. Went to eat breakfast and waited about 30 minutes. We went to the gym. I ran for 45 and did cycling for 15. I am sure I will not be doing this tomorrow. I have a very early schedule. I want out go home now on my fist day…..I miss them terribly.

The meeting started @ 2:30 and was ok, not really boring. Colleagues that I’ve never seen for years. It was really great to see them. Something interesting happen, before the meeting started my ex boss approach me and gave me a hug. I almost drop my jaw. He was really upset with me for leaving but I need to grow and I refuse to do my job and someone else gets the recognition. No way, I think I should get recognize for it.

After the meeting we went back to the room. As I was walking towards the elevator to go back down I saw my other ex boss (the owner), I guess he did not have a choice but to be civil. What a surprise!!! I think everyone’s pretty much over it. Thank goodness!

October 12, 2008 – woke up really early. Had to pack my stuff, I am schedule to go to a 2 day business meeting. Kuya called around 7:30 and tried to give me all these excuses,I told him yesterday’s gone and today’s a new day already. Oh well, so much time was wasted already. I am already frustrated on him. I know he has no understanding of his responsibility and accountability. I have no other way to explain it to him, no more. I just pray and hope that one day (soon) he’ll realize he has to do something and not just talk about things in general. I told him to not call me for a few days. I just want to calm down.

We went to church, ate at that new seafood restaurant, McCormick & Schmicks located at Crabtree Valley Mall. The food is ok, but the desserts are awesome, Mango crème Brule & dark chocolate paper bag. Went home, I needed to spend at least a few hours with Pangs & Diana, I will miss them a lot. We left around 4:20 and got to Charlotte at 7:20pm… checked in, went to the gym I ran for 20 minutes and did the cycling for 15 minutes. I am trying to get back on my regular exercise schedule. I miss it , I don’t want to get out of track. It was a huge accomplishment for me to loose 40lbs and this is my 2^nd yr. Easy to gain weight and really hard to loose it.

October 2, 2008

Another day (it's lovely out there). I was gettting ready for my mammogram this morning. I was scared, really scared... It went ok..Thanks for the good lucks & prayers.I received a text message from Madonna this morning, it was nice of her to remembere me, I know I miss her and she misses me more (lol), no kidding, we're all just busy and have our focus and priorities.

What did I do? Last night after talking to Pangs, I felt a lot better. Although, I am still having problem putting myself to sleep. I felt much better.

On my way to the clinic I called one of my sister and I told her what Mom and I discussed, I told her i can't do this alone and I will need all the help I can from all of them. She said she's ok with it. Then I called my Ate and told her as well, actually Mom already discussed it with her. I did not want ot bother her about it, she's got 6 kids, one in collegee, 2 in high school & 2 in grade school, but since she's the oldest she could at least help me tell the rest of our siblings.

Anyways, after my appointment on my way back I called my brother and told him too. I told him I need his help and hopefully this would wake/shake him up. I hope......3 down, 3 more to go ..I have 3 other siblings I need to talk to.

Busy day...later.............

October 1, 2008

 I got a phone call from my Mom. I really don’t know what to do. She said she was not feeling well. Both my parents are now retired and guess what!!! Poor retirement planning, yup, housing market is down, economy sucks and Mom stuck with a some financial problems. I do not know if I should talk to all my siblings and tell them what’s going on. Or maybe I should wait and see what happens. If only she had listen to my advice, maybe it’s a little better. I know it’s hard for Mom and I am sure she’s not feeling well because she has no idea, how is she going to balance/manage their money. I wish I have a lot of money and pay all her bills and then maybe I can give them a comfortable retirement. Haaaaaaaaaaa, I wish for many things, things for my parents, siblings, relatives, friends and people who are in need of a lot of it. Right now, my mind is just somewhere; I do not know what to say. I am totally choked up and I am scared, I may not be able to chew, swallow and carry all of it. Oh gosh, I JUST WISH for it to be BETTER!!!!! I WISH……. L L L :(

September 28, 2008

Last Friday I went to the doctor for my follow up visit. There are just things you never know…. Things that scare you and at times it does really scare you. I am perfectly fine, that I know, I guess I am just a little too paranoid. I hear a lot of people are sick (people I know & don’t know). It’s driving me nuts thinking about it , I dunno why I worry about everybody, Sometimes I just watch TV and see this poor kid not having to eat, no one to take care of her/him, I have tears from eyes rolling down to my cheeks. I haven’t been sleeping well lately, I am trying though, it’s just hard.

September 25, 2008

I called in sick; I am just not feeling well.

I spoke to Timmy,it’s glad to hear from her, it has been  a month since I last heard from her. She was telling me that worrying just makes your negative cells active which would affect your immune system and then makes you sick. Hhmm sometimes you just wonder, why?

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